For a brief update,
I have been busy, working, and leading a life in Asia,
Been travelling as well for business trips,

I have been confused, and had been debating with myself,
for many things that don’t seem to add up,
and don’t seem to be acceptable in the society I am living in.

Recently, there’s a change in my friend’s webhosting,
and thus, I lost a few posts,
but I’ll update more, soon….

I have been trying to capture non-portrait pictures,
and hope when I’ve found some inspiration,
I’ll add some quotes or poems

Unlike 2009 New Year Day,
I didn’t cut a cake.

The year 2009 is ending,
and the new year 2010 is arriving,
in 4 hours, 30 minutes,
and a few more seconds, to be precise.

What was my last year’s new year’s resolution?
to survive the year?
“to get stronger this year, and healthier”

It has been a year since college graduation,
and what have I accomplish on the year 2009?
Besides family issues,
I guess, Chinese and Indonesian language skill?

As time pass by,
I learnt more of my history, my family,
and myself.

But at the same time,
time also help to clean some of my memory,
heal some wound,
and free some of my hard drive, good or bad.

Living in China as a foreign student (as I have always been) in the year 2009,
is not as I expected it to be,
I thought that I belong here (as a Chinese),
but, no, I don’t think I am welcomed here.
I guess, I feel belonged (or home) being with my family, and my dog.

Next year’s resolution?
to survive the year, lead a more meaningful life,
provide as much happiness as possible,
and start earning profit and sales!

Health wise,
I can only cross my fingers,
I can’t afford to lose anything more than what I am expecting,
and I can’t afford to lose anyone either.

To conclude the year,
it is time for me to officially bid farewell to my student life,
and expect the best of a new life as a business woman.

Happy New Year, Everyone!

Had the worst cold this year
Had tons of meds,
and still have sniffles!

After being sick for so many days,
I’m going back to attend my classes!

I want to go back

This is a mistake.
I miss Singapore,
I miss my princess,
I miss my family.

I am ready to leave

“We are all something, but none of us are everything.” Blaise Pascal

Love, Relationship, Marriage,
are all very controversial topic,
especially when discussed with different people from different countries.

It is such a boring, un-debatable discussion,
that I hate to discuss with the class,
because I am a very different and odd individual,
and everyone is different.

Each of us have our own opinion,
so why choose the topic to be discussed in Oral Chinese class?

It’s annoying and disturbing to be here,
I need a personal space,
from this environment,
from this society.

“Actually, everyone’s life is similar. Some are wide and some are narrow. The only difference is how we looked at it.”

No one’s life is perfect,

everyone has their own problem.

Therefore,

I am not alone.

I might just be looking at my life with one of my camera lens.

It may look different if I looked at it with a different lens.

What’s important, is,

How my eyes perceive the image through those lenses.

What’s your goal coming out from here?
What would you want us to help you?
I always got confused answering these kinds of questions.
Because I have no idea what I want, or what kind of help I need.
All I know, is that, I am the only one who can help myself.

A few more days,
made me wonder,
what if,
why did you,
how could she…

Ventilators, Nurses, Doctors,
recalled my memory,
a painful ones,
one that I am scared of repeating.