Had the worst cold this year
Had tons of meds,
and still have sniffles!

I want to go back

This is a mistake.
I miss Singapore,
I miss my princess,
I miss my family.

I am ready to leave

What’s your goal coming out from here?
What would you want us to help you?
I always got confused answering these kinds of questions.
Because I have no idea what I want, or what kind of help I need.
All I know, is that, I am the only one who can help myself.

A few more days,
made me wonder,
what if,
why did you,
how could she…

Ventilators, Nurses, Doctors,
recalled my memory,
a painful ones,
one that I am scared of repeating.

When I was packing up for Beijing in Singapore,
I was distracted by the stacked pictures I took in Singapore.
Those photographs bring back memories,
the sweetness and sourness, and also the bitterness of our past.

That night, I took out that particular yellow photo album,
It was painful to flip the page,
but it was even more painful to recall those memories.
They also remind me of being in that room, or similar room.

Time passes,
Day by day, I involuntarily lose those little bits of memories,
Those pictures, will always remind me of how much all of us has been through.

In a couple of weeks, it will be 9 years since we met,
Though related in many ways, you are so far away,
Others might have forgotten you,
but I will not.

“We try to grab pieces of our lives as they speed past us.
Photographs freeze those pieces and help us remember how we were.
We don’t know these lost people but if you look around,
you’ll find someone just like them” – Gene McSweeney

China,
a country that is populated with 1.38 Billion,
where some laws practiced in reverse from most countries in the world.

If only 10% of the population are helpful (and useful, bluntly speaking),
but so far, none was found,
not even in the police station or in the foreign department for foreign students.

What disgust me most are those who work in the police department,
who viewed themselves as "the justice or the law" but are just iniquitous.

Remember "Officer": being able to speak a little Chinese does not mean that I understand you completely.
Being an INTERNATIONAL STUDENT does not mean that I understand all the procedures in CHINA!

If only the people practice to follow some of the law,
if only pedestrian’s way of right is superior than vehicle’s (especially cars and buses)
I’m very sure China’s image will improve,
at least in my point of view.

I hope my point of view of China will change, for better or worse, before I go Home.
Yes, Home, as I am returning earlier than I have planned.

He Hua, originally uploaded by %2.

Beautifully dancing among the broad and healthy leaves,
Flowers have a better life than I do.
They lived with strong roots and a fresh water,
Unlike me, who don’t have a strong structure.

Nevertheless, I am still lucky, to be able to live in fresh water,
And receiving the love of sunshine.
I may be different from any other flowers or leafs around me,
But I am still glad and thankful that I still receive
the care and love from leaves, the water, and the sun.

I am not a broken flower nor a rotten bud,
I only have a half of stem that is psychologically confused.
My other half and other supporting components that made me
Are my life-support, at least for now.

If I can live meaningfully and beautifully like these flowers,
I will be happy.
But I may also come from a rotten roots or buds

Everything that exist in this world has a name,
Each of us have our roles to be played in this world.
Animals and insects, too,
have their own distinctive obligation to contribute.

I believe that among all living things,
Humans have the biggest role and responsibility among all.
Regardless of our occupation or even roles in daily life,
All of us have to live, needs to be and can never be sattisfied,
Which made some of us more self-centered than others.

When a child was born,
The parents have the responsibility to nurture the child,
And then is obligated to educate the child,
Not to mention that love and care is the prominent basis of each of the parents.

On the other hand, a child’s role is to respect, love, and obedient to their parents.
When they were growing up, their role also includes being a student,
as they were entering adulthood, then their role has transcend,
to contribute their skills and knowledge to the society.

If the child come from a chinese family, then it is their responsibility to bear children,
And are also expected to take care of their elders.
However, if anyone breaches their duty and responsibility,
Then everyone around them will suffer, be mocked at,
regardless of whose fault it is to be selfish and run away from everyday obstacles.