I am scared that a friend who have inspired me will leave,
but I do know that everyone has to leave me and the world.
Sometimes life is just like driving in a very foggy weather,
you need to gather up the courage to drive forward,
relying on your fog lights, yellow flashy street signs, and your instincts.
I realized how much free time I had but wasted them.
I could have do as much scrapbook, blogs, readings, Gmats, studying mandarin or spanish, and some others.
But I had wasted my time watching dramas online or watch tv.
I HAVE TO train my mind and body to wake up early,
do exercises to keep fit,
and clean up the house!
I am and have been trying to save up money (mostly by food),
and hopefully will be a success to pay the medical bills and
hopefully able to lift my dad’s burden (even though it is challenging).
I can’t help my feelings toward everything.
Feelings are very hard to control that I remember Sharon from British Council told me,
“Easy to say, but hard to do”.
Similarly, it is easy to ask someone to feel good or grateful about someone,
but it is hard to do because my mind and my heart do not go hand-in-hand.
My mother is hurt, but no one realizes how much all of us are hurt too.
One can blame and convinced other people, but they don’t realize who has a healthier brain.
