I cannot forgive myself to have a defected spine.
Most importantly, I cannot forgive myself to let my friends and family worry about me.
If no one stays in the hospital with me, I would not feel as guilty as I am now.
If I had handled my personal problems independently, things would be better.
I am disappointed and hurt by myself, as being a useless person.
This experience have teach me how to face obstacles in life in the future,
and I hope I will deal with it independently.
