I am really scared,
of the upcoming surgery,
of my decision,
and of my family.
Do I believe in heaven?
No. But Do I want to?
No. Should I?
I don’t know.
So don’t scare me about either going to hell or heaven.
To me, I only have 2 choices, to live or to die.
Right now, I am trying to live in fear.
Am I making the right choice?
I can only hope that the surgery and recovery will be successful.
