Pathetique, originally uploaded by The Invisibly Dead.

I am the one who will always have to apologize,
whether I am wrong, or  right.
I knew that the second I was born.

I hate my brain, I hate my mind.
I hate my structure, I hate my health.
I hate my life, and I don’t want to believe in fate.

I am Damaged,
am Broken,
and will give up eventually.

No one can understand anyone.
and I don’t expect either way,
for I am a stupid, weak, and pathetic man,
who don’t like to kiss-ass.

I wish I am programmable,
with no feelings,
and do and feel just as everyone expects me to.
So, am I going to give up?

Life can be depressing,
but I hope I can still hold on to something
to move on in this world

Shoes of Steps of Shoes, originally uploaded by The Invisibly Dead.

I’m Sorry but I can’t, and wouldn’t do it willingly.

When can I wear them?
When will I wear them?

I CHOPPED my own hair!!!

Burst, originally uploaded by The Invisibly Dead.

I hate my body structure!

Even though I got a good grade for the most hardest class,
it is a disappointment to hear that I will have to miss a part of my college life.

This is going to be hard to go through,
But I have to try.

I expected too much from my own unreliable body.
Another expectation leading to another disappointment.

I love Chocolate!!, originally uploaded by The Invisibly Dead.

Amidst the suffering that we have to go through,
there is still sweetness that dimly glows around us.

Summer is ending.
I have a very mixed feeling.

I can only wait and wish for the good news.
I can only wish the nerve is healing.

Ladder to Heaven-ed, originally uploaded by The Invisibly Dead.

I wish I don’t have to hang on to anything, nor anyone.
I wish I won’t need crutches, canes, nor walker.
I wish I wouldn’t need to depend on any medication either.

But most importantly, I wish my mind will always be healthy.
No matter how hard it will be,
I have to move on,
I have to get stronger, both mentally and physically.

I will always have to go through all obstacles,
no matter what.